It’s my birthday today. I am feeling old now that my mid thirties are creeping ever closer. Birthdays are a time when I quite often get a bit melancholy and reflect on the year that has gone by. It definitely seems to be true this year because so much has changed in my life since my last birthday, some of it good and some of it not so good. It sounds cheesy but I’m definitely not the same person that I was this time last year.
I’m without a doubt a lot stronger as a person. I’ve become far more selective about who I chose to give my time and effort to. It might sound selfish but I focus more on myself now that I did a year ago. This is partly because I have come to realise that sometimes I need to put myself first in order to be the best version of myself. I don’t let people walk all over me anymore. If I’m totally honest I think my husband is struggling with this as I always used to be a bit of a submissive wife but I am definitely not that any more.
I think that I have also become a kinder person recently. I have been making a real effort to do more to help other people. We try to complete one random act of kindness as a family each week. I’m really enjoying this, and think it’s helped me to become more aware of what the world can be like for other people. It’s certainly made me more grateful for all I have, and opened my eyes up a lot to what the world really can Ben like for some people.
I think the biggest thing I’ve learnt from this year though is that I’m not happy in the job that I currently do. In fact I’m leaving it in a few months. I have taken the brave step to leave and eek out a living as a self employed person. I had planned to go to university originally but I know that this isn’t the right move for me at the moment. I think if it’s legal I’m likely to try it out over the next few months to figure out what works for me and what doesn’t. A year ago I know I wouldn’t have had the confidence to even consider doing this. Now I feel totally calm and at ease with my decision.
I do want the next year to be one of the best in my life though so here are some of the things I want to achieve:
- Successfully set myself up as self employed
- Have an amazing holiday in Florida
- Lose enough weight to wear clothes in the normal ranges
- Get the garden sorted and make plans for a few rooms in the house to be completely renovated
- Learn to say no more
I’ve decided that the next 12 months are going to be truly awesome (that’s definitely a Lottie phrase!).